since my birthday and the new year are in the same week, it’s always a double intense reminiscing time for me.
there is much to recap and even more to say. i will save that for another day as 2012 sneaks up on us.
i do, however, have this article from relevant magazine which has come my way multiple times and i want to highlight/bold a few things.
((the god talk doesn’t pertain to me as i’m agnostic, but i believe in karma and being a good person, doing the right thing, having integrity, practicing gratitude, showing kindness. i might never figure the logistics out, but i’m sure there will be answers in time.))
#11: DON’T GET STUCK
This is the thing: When you hit 28 or 30, everything begins to divide. You can see very clearly two kinds of people. On one side, people who have used their 20s to learn and grow, to find God and themselves and their dreams, people who know what works and what doesn’t, who have pushed through to become real live adults.
a “real live adult” is what i feel like i am FINALLY becoming. i still don’t know jack shit about anything, but i’ve stopped being a reckless, know-it-all, asshole idiot. where there was once so much confusion, there is now a quiet calm, a confidence, a sense of peace and pride in the person i truly am: a person i can be proud of instead of a whiny, stupid, little, self-destructive girl.
Then there’s the other kind, who are hanging onto college, or high school even, with all their might.
They’ve stayed in jobs they hate, because they’re too scared to get another one.
They’ve stayed with men or women who are good but not great, because they don’t want to be lonely.
They mean to find a church, they mean to develop intimate friendships, they mean to stop drinking like life is one big frat party.
But they don’t do those things, so they live in an extended adolescence, no closer to adulthood than when they graduated.
these are the kind of people i am FINALLY able to let go.
at last, i am able to recognize red flags and disagreeable people. i used to pride myself in being the patron saint of lost causes, but i’ve finally realized how wasteful and selfish that is of me when i am so blessed and lucky to have such wonderful people in my life. i cannot afford and do not wish to invest my time and effort and kindness in those who suck at life and suck the happiness and joy from everything because they themselves are “stuck” and miserable.
it was a difficult hill to climb, but at the summit, this clarity crashed onto me like a breaking wave.
Don’t be like that. Don’t get stuck. Move, travel, take a class, take a risk. There is a season for wildness and a season for settledness, and this is neither. This season is about becoming.
Don’t lose yourself at happy hour, but don’t lose yourself on the corporate ladder either. Stop every once in a while and go out to coffee or climb in bed with your journal.
Ask yourself some good questions like: Am I proud of the life I’m living? What have I tried this month?
Now is your time.
Walk closely with people you love, and with people who believe God is good and life is a grand adventure.
Don’t get stuck in the past, and don’t try to fast-forward yourself into a future you haven’t yet earned.
Give today all the love and intensity and courage you can, and keep traveling honestly along life’s path.
now is my time.
i have a lot to do.
there is so much in front of me and i am not in the slightest rush.
i want to enjoy every second of my wonderful life with my sensational friends—new and old, my ever endearing family, the love of my life and our sweet dog, this new fulfilling and grand job/career, and all the little and big things i love so much.
i will eradicate all negativity and miserableness from my life and try with all my heart to make the most of every day, to fill it with love and happiness and idgaf how cheesy that sounds—it’s christmastime and MLIA.